Julian

We went on our own adventure to Julian while daddy was visiting Sonny in the hospital. It was so much fun driving up with you and looking at the cows and horses and having you sing as we explored. It was SOOO cold when we arrived you even fell over b/c of the wind. We did not get to do all that much, but it was fun to be with your friends and try something new.

Holiday update

My little Lady... my handful of love, challenges, blessings and lots of learning I love you so very much.

There are moments when I don't know if I handle you and there are moments when I just can't enough of you. Apparently you are up for an Oscar at school...we are really struggling to get you to cleanup after you various projects.

The other day you made me laugh so hard. You came home and grabbed my face "listen to me, listen mommy. we don't hit"

Watching you find your way to navigate Fancy and Eloise has been so interesting between picking which toy they 'should' play with and how they should play.

I look forward to you finding your way to share and adjust with changes better than me. I hope that I can take more time to be in the moment with you just enjoying our time together as opposed to planning and preparing.
I am so thankful to be your mother my wish is that you can be a bit more easy going and allow others to play with your toys, that you will not get so very worked up when things don't go the way you plan and that you can be gentle with your friends. I know that you heart is beautiful and pure and that I need to help guide you through this hard time of BIG feelings.
My baby you will always be.