Ballet, Tutus and Spunk

You are blossoming into your own self determined person. It has been amazing watching you create your own path. Your father and I want to nurture your individuality as you have an awesome personality. You have decided to start ballet, you love wearing tutus and tights, you want to be a princess and you want to be in charge. You have a heart of gold, which we see daily through your hugs, kisses, gentle touches and way that interact with all those you encounter.
We had a lovely Thanksgiving where you took off your turkey hand dress and decided to wear your Cinderella dress to the table complete with earrings and high heals. It was our first Thanksgiving in our home and you had such fun with your aunt abby and grandpa. The house was peaceful and fun, which made it so very enjoyable.
We have been on baby watch, which has been hard on all of us as we don't know when baby will come and you are so excited to meet your little brother or sister. I know that it is hard that I can't lift you as much and I am quick to tears. You are going to be a wonderful big sister as you talk about all the things you will teach and share with the baby.
I know that we do not always make the best parenting choices, but we sure try and I want you to read this knowing that I love you for who you are. I love all your different emotions, creativity and determination. The challenges you bring into our family teach us all wonderful lessons and help me as a mom to look within myself and explore my past and present self. You are a true blessing. I can't wait to learn how to me a mom of 2. Thank you for making me a mom.

Pink Balloon

Watching you watch your balloon fly away brought tears to my eyes. You worked so hard to control your emotions. You had no idea which way to turn, so you came into my arms. The purest sight of tears streaming down your face as you watched you precious balloon float away. I had you watch it rise in the sky and we talked how an angle or fairy would get it. You just held on to me with the sincerest of hugs as you cried about your balloon, which brought tears streaming down my face. It took everything to not tell you that we would go get another one.  I believe in your ability to deal with pain and I also want to honor your choice not to leave the balloon in the house or make you tie it on your wrist. What would you have learned? What would have been gained. I also believe in myself that I prepared you enough for what might happen if your balloon floated away. We talked about the science as well as the emotional understanding that while the balloon is special it is just an object. It is hard to loose something that you care about, it is a really tough lesson, but life is hard. I can't take away your pain, but I can and want to be there to share in your pain and remind you that you are not alone. 

June you are ever so resilient and spirited. I want you to always feel as deeply as you did today and then let it go. You held onto pieces as you brought it up after you nap, but the emotion was out of it. You were processing what had happened and hoped to see a fairy flying in the sky with your balloon. I hope to allow myself to feel such disappointment as it is only with those big feelings do we really live. This always loops back to living in the moment, which I am working so hard to achieve. I realized this week that we only have 6-8wks of the 2 of us and I feel like I have already missed so much. Why can't I just relax and snuggle in bed? Why am I always thinking that I am not doing enough. I just want to hold you as much as possible before Posh arrives. I know that I have plenty of room to love you both and I look forward to creating an incredible family and you have already taught me so much. However, I am still scared and a bit sad about missing out on our time yet I know that there will be many more opportunities and there will also be many beautiful family moments. I need to value our snuggles, our stopping on walks, our staring up at the sky or just taking time to think as more valuable than anything I could check off of my to-do list. 

I feel so challenged and pleased by how we navigated today. There is always room for me to improve in how I talk with you or my tone, but overall it was a great day because we had struggles and we let things go. I feel like I heard you more today and responded to your needs. What a full day of kisses, activities, tears, hugs, snuggles and responding to both of our needs...we are working towards BALANCE. 

San Jose

My little love,

It has been many months since I wrote on our blog. We moved to San Jose...we left San Diego and started our great adventure in a new city. So much has changed: we lived in a hotel for 2wks, moved into a great new home, you got a big-girl bed, you started a new school, daddy started a cleanse and has lost a lot of weight, and I submitted my paperwork for the Internship number, created a new mom's support group and started to network. We really hit the ground running! You have been an amazing trouper through all of the changes.
Tonight was special as tonight daddy and I put you to bed. We both snuggled in your bed to read stories and sing songs. I love watching you with him and I love getting to hold you at the same time. We have about 8wks left till your little brother or sister arrives and I want to cherish this time when it it is just the 3 of us. We are working hard to help you feel safe with daddy putting you to sleep and helping you instead of just me. He has started to take you to ice class, which is so neat and even got to drop you off at school. You are the most precious thing to us, which is why you are only in school 3 days per week and we will figure out an interesting work plan for me you are only little once and I want to be present. I am working hard to be the mom that I know I am capable of being. It takes a lot of work and patience. I learn so much from you everyday and you push me in new ways. You are so outgoing that I have to be prepared to be extroverted when we go on walks as there are no strangers in your little blue eyes. You have a million questions and I don't always have the answer which leads you to even more questions. June you are my light and my greatest struggle. I don't think I understood how hard yet amazing being a parent is.
You are resilient, insightful, fun, loving, kind, caring, funny and beautiful both inside and out. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful 2yr and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you in it. I love you forever. I like you for always. Forever and Always my baby you will be.
*And we now have at least 1 tea party every day*

You wanted your mani and pedi to match your ladybug costume! This was all you kiddo! You are so creative!

After our first nature walk in SJ...I love how much you love me. I can't believe you tell me you love me and give me kisses and hugs everyday. I am such a lucky mama!

You figured out how to "do 2" fingers!

Even with all of the craziness with the move you keep thinking, growing and trying to adapt to all the changes. You slept in our bed last night as nights just seem rough for you. Then on our way to kids space you squeal...Mom I did it..I did 2! It was so amazing to see you so proud of yourself. I am so lucky to have such an amazing and resilient daughter. 

Concert in the Park

My dancing queen. What a fun night of Trader Joe's delights, picnic blanket and some quality time with my little miss...it was a wonderful night. You decided that you needed to wear a tutu so that you could dance, you asked so nicely for stickers as we left trader joes and you asked mommy to go away while you danced up front. I know that I had you miss a birthday party for this, but soon it will be all about birthdays and your friends. I only get you for a bit longer and I want to make the most of it. I will always be here with open arms when you run to me, ask me for help or just want to sit quietly without saying a word. I can't believe that it is summer and that our time in San Diego is coming to an end. I am so happy to have us all as a family together in just a few weeks, but what an amazing gift to have spent such time 1 on 1 with my JB june bug. Can't wait for a few more months just the 3 of us. I hope that I can stay present and treasure the moments of you 'samabing', cooking in your kitchen, going on errands, having great ideas, or even helping with the laundry. I am so lucky to have had such a beautiful, courageous, out going, loving and smart daughter. 

This weekend was full of fun activities and just naked time. swim school, yoga, concert in the park, sunday morning show (where we sat and listened to Hilary Clinton talk about her plans for the future and all of her accomplishments. It was if you knew that she was saying something important as you just sat next to me holding my hand and absorbing. I am excited to see the powerful woman that you become.), zoo, market, dinner, laundry sorting with the best helper and then naked time. You are sweet beyond words, observant beyond comparison and  we count down our final 4 days till daddy comes home then only 1 more week till we travel to San Jose to start again. So excited for more beautiful adventures hand in hand. I hope that I make you proud, but most importantly i hope that you feel unconditionally loved. 

Last days of school

Pop- Irv walked you to school most days! He loved walking you up the stairs and into your classroom. The teachers thought that it was so very cute how he doted over you. The outfit you are wearing in this picture is one that you wore your first week of school. It was big on you then, but just to cute. Now it fits and you proudly walk with lunch box in hand. This was a great school for you and I am sad to say good-bye. As you said about the Sea Slug...good-byes are hard, but baby we will get through these changes as home is always where your heart and family are.
From the first days of you crying because that is what you thought you were supposed to do because of the other children crying to now you talk about all of your friends and great them while we have snack on the wall in the afternoon. From nursing and diapers to milk from a cup to snack that you open yourself that wall and this year has been full of change. It has been an incredible journey.

the past few days

JB you have been such a delight. You talk, walk and ask for what you want. You are so darn sweet with everyone (especially babies) and I keep falling more in love with you. You are being a mini-me more and more as you take on the things I like. You grow up so fast yet in the moment i can sometimes snap out of unnecessary frustration. In those moments I am focusing on me and not on your needs. You do more every day than anyone could ask or should ask. You are a child and deserve to be treated as one.  You deserve to run around naked, have ice cream before dinner, be cared for and always know that your needs will be met. You are a precious gift and I am so lucky to have you in my life.

Graduation

June we did it...I graduated with a MA in counseling! You have been such a trouper putting up with a stressed mother, a father working in a different city and all the changes that you have been through. It was such a fun weekend. Thursday with your duchess and grandpa and daddy. Then friday night we had our first celebration at the bay. The bay where you played as a baby, the bay that I would walk you to weekly and the bay were you would nurse and waddle around naked. You have grown up so very much. Saturday was a pretty amazing day...I graduated with the gown, hat, hood, tassel and all. We then went out to celebrate for dinner by Harbor bay. Sunday was brunch in the club house, which was incredible. We also got to do something that I never did before... a duck boat ride! This weekend was a wonderful celebration of our family's accomplishment.

We're going to Kansas City, Kansas City here we come

We had a lovely long weekend in KC. Thursday at the farm, Chinese Shabbat dinner at Barbie and Pappo's with Barbie sitting with you on the potty singing and reading books, Saturday at the loft where sadly I was in bed, but your grandparents took such great care of you and Sunday walk with the dogs and some more dancing. It was a lovely visit. I love having you in KC and you seem to love it as well. Maybe one day soon we will be able to call it home again.

Fun on the swing with you pugs while waiting to Beatoven's dinner to arrive. It was a lovely Thursday evening at the farm.

Twirling on my favorite tire swing. Can't believe that you are big enough to ride on it.

 Big girl on a real little potty. The Potty is from the Downtown Jones Store. Duchess loved using this potty as a little girl and here you are 2yr getting to use it as well.

 Your first "manicure" with Claudia. I first met Claudia when I was 4 or 5 and she has been in our lives ever since. She brought you such a lovely dress and hair bows...you wanted you nails painted blue...

getting ready to leave KC.
As soon as we landed in SD you said lets go back...
it was so much fun in Kansas City

Samba lessons with grandpa and the pugs. We know you and grandpa had fun, but not sure about the pugs. You had us practicing all weekend and usually you were in 'Barbie's" pink tutu.

Mother's Day

We spent the morning dancing to Samba music with you in PJs and tutu. Then worked on projects for the women in our lives. We then ventured with your Bubby to a hair cut, which was sadly closed then to brunch. You were in such a state from not eating, but once you started my wonderful little lady appeared. All of my stress about you eating or sleeping is only for both of our well being. It makes me sad when you are in such a state of unhappiness and I get flustered and can't be the mom that I wish I could be. You then took a lovely nap and we had a blast with Alex, Val and Steve. It was such fun to see you with your buddy and I had such a lovely time with the adults. We are so lucky to have made such wonderful friends. It was such a fun weekend all the way around from open houses, dinner, swimming and errands. I also had such a pleasant
time not having school hanging over my head. I have relaxed with all the laundry over the house and chores not done as it is just so much fun to be present and play with you. Thank you for such a lovely weekend and for making me a mom.
singing on the way home from Alex's

DONE with SCHOOL

June I can't believe we did it. These last few days were so rough with you being sick and me needing to finish up my final assignments. I could not have asked for a more helpful toddler. You were amazing letting mommy type on the computer and read books without any pictures. I am so thankful for such a supportive family that allowed me to complete my masters. You spent the whole weekend with daddy and you LOVED every minute of it. We both love you so much and can't wait to live together in one house. You have been making birthday parties in your kitchen and wanting to carry as much as possible in your back pack. Other updates: your top molars came in, you talk about your pugs all the time and Mr. tater-tots. You are very excited for our trip to KC and I am so excited as well. You have started back at swim school, which has been such fun! It was great how quickly you got back into the swing of things. The other night we went to Chipolte with Alex and Val and you were so excited to see Alex that you ran up and gave him a big hug and held his hand. It is so cute watching you 2 together. The house is a mess, but we will get that all back in order now that school is done. I just want to enjoy the time with you and not worry about the other stuff...dishes, laundry, responsibilities. You are only 2 once and going to be a big sister in December, so I really want to cherish this time together. Less than 60days till we move to San Jose! I love you so much my pea-pod.

Wopper egg decoratios

at the OBGYN...heard baby's heart beat

bubbles, balloons, sunshine and laughter

June,
You have been amazing putting up with me since August. I have not been the mother, wife, student or friend that I would like to be, but baby we are almost done. I can't wait to walk across the stage with you in my arms in 1 month. I can't wait to turn in my last assignment on May 7 and just be a working mom. I promise to live more in the moment because it is only these moments, which make up our life and i want to look back with no regrets. We have been reading Good Night Moon again and I all keep thinking about to is when you moved down your room around 6-8m and i would nurse you to sleep reading that book. It would be dark, just the two of us as you drifted off to sleep snuggling and suckling. We have grown so much together and it makes me sad that a lot of of you precious first 2yrs on this beautiful earth have been with a mom who is not present and has a temper. I will work on taking deep breaths and accepting what life has to give to me. I want to be happy for myself and for you. I can't begin to tell you how much of a gift you are and I don't want a day to go by without you knowing how much you are loved, cared for and how special you are. This world is yours...i just want to help provide the foundation for you to thrive.

down by the bay...where it all started. 

my sunshine

Morning off tea party...set up by June! It was your party! We had a wonderful Tuesday morning. 

Off for Passover BREAK...tutu and mommy's heals...what could be better

My mini-me

You are just so spicy. Telling us what to do and how to do things. It is just too much. You amazed me when you played pretend that you went on an airplane to San Jose and brought home 2 books. You had your first Seder at school, which was such fun. I am so glad that I was able to join in at your school. Before the Seder you asked "what am i going to wear" I responded with, "i don't know June" quickly you said, "I KNOW my flower tutu!" I don't know where you got your style from. You now read to me on the potty, tell me all the rules. It is such fun and a lot of work all at the same time. My smart, amazing beautiful girl I am so lucky to have you in my life.  

Daddy's Favorite Show

Zoo with Alex

your tush

You have started to go potty all by yourself. You instruct me to stay in you room and you waddle back in with panties in hand. I am so proud of you. You taught me a wonderful lesson today. I was crying this morning because I was stressed and you let me hug you, you told me that I would be alright, but you didn't let me feelings consume you. it was wonderful to watch you navigate and to watch myself try to regain my composure as it is not your job to take care of me, but in some cases we are a team. I really needed to you listen to me and you did. We had a nice morning of starbucks, reading, bike ride and banking. Then tonight I was cross. you started to whine and did not differentiate my feelings and keep myself in check. I took away the chapstick and you got very upset. I then rushed through the routine as my over all intention is to get you to bed. Even though I know that it is my job to connect, empathize and support you. Once you calmed down and we talked you told me that we don't take things and i had taken the chapstick. You were so correct- i behaved poorly, which is so sad. I am not feeling like I am able to do any of my roles, wife, mother, pug mother, student, clinician, self care well in any arena, so i mess up all of them because I am stressed and too focused on the tasks which me 'must' complete. I just keep telling myself that it will be different when school is over. If i want that to be the case then I need to take ownership and build in the things that I need to thrive.
At the park we saw people practicing martial arts. you got off the bench and started doing it- I had never seen you do that before. It made me realize that I need that back in my life and how much I look forward to doing activities with you. This is not the life that I would have wanted for you, I hope that I have not messed you up too much. You are a champ my little JB june bug. Even when I am stressed, angry and not very nice please always know that I love you more than you will EVER know. I look forward to making more time to learn from you and all the extraordinary gifts you have to share.
*at a RE meeting at USD and you introduced yourself to the entire group, such a strong powerful woman you are!

more grownup each day

I went to San Jose while you stayed for 2 whole days and nights with your Bubby. It was great for me and your dad to be together not only for our relationship, but also to plan for our move. We found some amazing areas, a great school for you and had a wonderful time connecting as a couple. You were talked about and missed, but it was so great to see how much fun we can have as a couple. I so hope that your father and I can be an example for what you want or don't want in relationships for your future. Right now I want you to see how much love, support and dedication there is in our little family. We have made it so many months physically separate. We are all over the travel and look forward to reconnecting in 1 house in only 3 months!!! It is so hard on us to watch you struggle with bonding with daddy only to say goodbye a few days later. You have been so amazing handling it all. I can't wait to settle down and create even more of a home for you. You make me smile, laugh and help me to see the world in a different way. You are such a blessing from G-d that I hope I can give you all that you need on this earth. You are my precious gift that I will always treasure. 

The past few weeks

We sure have had our ups and downs. You have been much more snuggly, which has been nice, but also a challenge. I know that you are missing daddy so much, which is so painful to watch. I also think that you see me really struggling and that you are taking a lot on. My temper has not been great and that makes me so sad as mom. You come first and life is really not that hard- you deserve a wonderful mom. I need to let things go, not expect as much from you and be okay when mistakes happen. I get so caught up in knowing how important these first 5yrs are that I end up shooting myself in the foot when I stress about it. I want to foster love, respect, appreciation, empathy, compassion, trust, nurturing your inner core, developing a sense of self, the ability to stop and experience the world around us. If those are truly my intentions then I must take a breath and live in the moment and see the world through your beautiful and big blue eyes. Full of love, wonder, amazement and the desire to connect and be loved. 

great Sunday morning watching Daddy's favorite show. 

The cutest Panda at the Purim Carnival

what fun it was making our costumes

Homemade Pizza-such fun cooking in the kitchen with you!

I am going to San Jose tomorrow to look at schools for you, the area and spend time with dad. You will be staying with Bubby and the pugs are with Annie and Cole. You sure did cry when they went with Cole, which was sad to see, but I am so thrilled to see you liking them so much. I am nervous leaving all of my girls in different places and leaving you for 2 nights. Dad and I need time to figure out our next move and connect so that I can be a more patient and in the moment mom that you deserve. We are growing up my pipsqueek! Looking forward to what the future holds...

DRAMA

Oh my love...my independent clinger. I either smother you or I am not there when you NEED me- it is always a mystery. You did not nap well at all today and had another melt down about the bubbles. You are pushing so many things, BUT it is FINALLY clicking that you need to listen to me on the walks. I am SO thankful for that- you have no idea. I can't tell if you are sensing my anxiety and sadness and just feeding off of me or if you are going through a developmental stage. Between you stopping nursing and having my period my hormones are crazy and you are having to learn a new way to cope. Maybe it is just life, but I do know that dad and I will not be living apart after July for a VERY long time if ever again. You miss him, I am done with this experiment to see if i can do it on my own because I totally can. We went on a fine adventure today to the Safari Park and did a good job scouting it out. I am learning a lot about myself and about how to parent. I want to say that I am sorry for having you before I was ready (I realize that I was not that young, but I sure feel young), but maybe you will have some skills that other children don't have as we really grow together. I will always love you no matter what, but I have to be honest...there are some nights where I am putting you to bed and I just don't like you very much, but i look into your eyes and hold you tight as I love you very much and I know that I will miss you when you are sleeping at that tomorrow is a new day. As always I am so lucky to be your mom.

I love my mommy!

You are doing okay adjusting to no more nurse milk. However, today you tried to 'nurse' off of my breast. You are more cuddly, which I love. You hold my hand, yelled MOMMY and ran to me when I picked you up at school and told a sitter at the park that "I love your mommy". You are turing into your own person. You had a booboo at the park and asked to go home to get ice...nothing like your mama. It is as if I am falling in love more with you each day. You have 'ideas' and all sorts of things to talk about. It does still makes me a bit sad that we are done nursing, but all of this snuggling is WONDERFUL. I made you a cheese burrito and you LOVED it and we had a picnic right on the sidewalk.

Shabbat Shalom

We added a new blessing to our Shabbat service:

MOTHER:

And the child grew up, and was weaned, and Abraham held a great feast on the day that Isaac was weaned (Genesis 21:8)

Vayigdal ha-yeled vayigamal vaya'as Avraham mishteh gadol b'yom higamel et Yitzhak.

Blessed are You, God, Ruler of the Universe, who has made me a woman.

Barukh atah Adonai Eloheynu melekh ha-olam she'asani isha.

Blessed are You, God, Ruler of the Universe, who has enabled me to nurse.

Barukh atah Adonai Eloheynu melekh ha-olam she-natan li l'haynik.

FATHER:

Blessed are You, God, Ruler of the Universe, who has sustained us and preserved us and brought us to this occasion.

TOGETHER:

Barukh atah Adonai Eloheynu melekh ha-olam shehecheyanu v'kiyamanu v'higiyanu laz'man hazeh.

Just as Abraham and Sarah rejoiced at the weaning of their son Isaac, our hearts too, are glad that our daughter has grown into childhood, sustained in good health by God's precious gift of milk. 

Blessed are you, God, ruler of the universe who has enabled parents to rejoice in their children.

We, in love, continue to give sustenance to this child and provide for his physical needs. May we provide also spiritual sustenance through examples of lovingkindness, and through the teaching of the Torah and the traditions of our people.

It brought tears to my eyes thinking about how it has been almost 5 days without nurse milk. We then went out for Italian with daddy to celebrate! 

goodbye nurse milk

The last night that you went to sleep with nurse milk was on Sunday, February 23. It was a bitter sweet feeling knowing that something that we have done everyday of your life first for necessity, then comfort and food, then for your calcium and comfort evolving to pure comfort 2x a day. It was beautiful ended the day with you suckling and then reconnecting in the morning with snuggling before we started on our adventures for the day.
Now it is time to find a new way to connect and comfort. It has been such a beautifully painful and magical experience. I am so thrilled that I was able to nurse you...it is hard to say goodbye for me as well. It is a loss for me as well, but seeing you whimper for only a few min reinforces that you were ready for this change.  I wanted to do it before I got too frustrated and before the chance of me getting pregnant. A dance between learning your needs and desires and recognizing my ability to give has taught me more than you will ever know. Nursing helped me to connect and bond with you - i would go so far as to say it is what bonded us and know that our bond is so strong we are both ready to stay bonded through laughter, empathy, respect, love, devotion, attention to your needs and time to focus on each other. I love you my happy, strong, powerful, independent and insightful June. I am excited and nervous to continue this dynamic relationship without the nurse milk. Looking forward to celebrating our growth this Shabbat with Daddy.

playtime

I am so tired of rushing you around...it gets both of us frustrated. You want to run the show and there are things that need to be done, so we skipped a show this AM, which was a great thing because you decided to have a nearly 45min breakfast dinning experience. It was so much fun just talking with you and you reached to give me hugs and kisses...I love my family you said! You picked out a very cute outfit and me made it out the door without too much struggle...you just missed the car and made a b-line for the sidewalk.
You now like to walk up to the school by yourself, not even holding hands! After school we hung around for nearly 30min till you decided  that you were ready to get in your stroller to walk home. You REALLY just want everything on your schedule, so I am going to TRY to be me conscious of that, but I don't want to miss out on things and you get sad when we don't get to do something because it took you too long or you changed your mind too many times that we ended up missing out. This is sure going to be a balancing act, but it brings me such joy to see you calm and happy and just enjoying life.

AWESOME

Today you told me that I was awesome. It is so amazing watching you turn into your own person. We prepped the mushrooms for dinner together, took 30min to walk to the park and then we got to play! You just love to do things on your own and you want to be in charge. This is going to be an interesting journey my love. Also, right now you love the mail truck, so on our way to the park we had to watch the mail man and you had to walk and plop on the ground and do your little pouty face.
Even with you trying to assert your independence I had a brief moment tonight when you woke up after I go home. you didn't say a word just nursed and fell asleep on me. you still do the same suckling as when you were a baby. Oh I fall in love with you more everyday and I learn more about myself with each new step that you take. I am so honored to be your mother.

YOU are 2!!!!

what a weekend! Friday night we celebrated Grandpa's birthday with barbie, pappo, Duchess, Daddy and of course Grandpa. 

Then bright and early we ventured to pick up coffee and donuts on the way to your painting party.  All of your friends came and it was a WONDERFUL time. Followed by Greek, presents and a min nap :)

we then finished off the weekend in Coronado at fun Viki's house and ventured down to the beach before we finished the night having Chinese with Bubby, Daddy, Pop Irv, Mom-mom, Joel, Duchess and Grandpa...you were a total mess. 

 

 5:45am KITCHEN time...you are loving to cook and draw and play with all of your toys. We are off to a week full of redirection and getting over your sugar  and attention overload. It was a perfect 2yr old birthday weekend. Ending with a celebration at school. It was all about celebrating our little lady. it has been so amazing watching you blossom.

Our morning song

Every morning:
 we awake and go pee-pee on the potty...
 we have nurse milk in bed...you don't want to be under the covers
 we then wiggle around... then watch 1 show and all done
 we then look at what is on the night stand...beginning our days negotiations
 we then get ready for the journey down the stairs to walk the pugs...sometimes stoping for a drawing a long the way
 getting ready to go in the pouch is quite an adventure...no i want to walk you always say
 leaving the house with you on my tummy and the pugs on leashes we set off for our 10min stroll
 seeing our song...

I hear the birds a chirping good morning to june

I hear the cars a roaring good morning to june

a snuggle and a walk to say

good morning to june

what a wonderful way to start the day

good morning, good morning to june

when you are 25

I wonder what color your hair will be
I wonder what will make you laugh
I wonder what adventures you will have taken
I wonder what life choices you will have made

I hope that you will be on the journey of self exploration
I hope that you will be giving yourself the opportunity to grow and flourish
I hope that you will have found a passion or two and embrace it with all of your might
I hope that you will have dreams and wishes and let them consume you
I hope that you will have found love and heartbreak
I hope that you will have found something to believe in...whatever that may be
I hope that when the day is done and the sun is setting that you will take a moment to appreciate all that you have
I hope that every night when you close your eyes you will remember that I love you unconditionally
I hope that every morning when the moon begins to fade and the birds sing our song you will feel love and support all around
I hope that when you are 25 you will feel the desire just to call and say hi to me, your mom

When I was 25 you were turning two...
I will love you forever, I will like you for always forever and always my baby you will be

2 yr old time line

First birthday 

5 days old

1st Avocado 

Up the stairs with Fancy and Eloise

 First Holiday Season with Mom, Barbie and Duchess

 first holiday season with Mom, Barbie and Duchess

 5months of swim school and still loving it

 First trip in the SkyFarie at the Zoo

Fathers day 2013

First day of School

Driadle with Grandpa

barbie and Pappo for Thanksgiving

Beach fun with Aunt Abby

Chiefs game with Bubby and Dad

ready for my morning walk

first haircut almost 2 yr