goodbye nurse milk

The last night that you went to sleep with nurse milk was on Sunday, February 23. It was a bitter sweet feeling knowing that something that we have done everyday of your life first for necessity, then comfort and food, then for your calcium and comfort evolving to pure comfort 2x a day. It was beautiful ended the day with you suckling and then reconnecting in the morning with snuggling before we started on our adventures for the day.
Now it is time to find a new way to connect and comfort. It has been such a beautifully painful and magical experience. I am so thrilled that I was able to nurse you...it is hard to say goodbye for me as well. It is a loss for me as well, but seeing you whimper for only a few min reinforces that you were ready for this change.  I wanted to do it before I got too frustrated and before the chance of me getting pregnant. A dance between learning your needs and desires and recognizing my ability to give has taught me more than you will ever know. Nursing helped me to connect and bond with you - i would go so far as to say it is what bonded us and know that our bond is so strong we are both ready to stay bonded through laughter, empathy, respect, love, devotion, attention to your needs and time to focus on each other. I love you my happy, strong, powerful, independent and insightful June. I am excited and nervous to continue this dynamic relationship without the nurse milk. Looking forward to celebrating our growth this Shabbat with Daddy.