The past few weeks

We sure have had our ups and downs. You have been much more snuggly, which has been nice, but also a challenge. I know that you are missing daddy so much, which is so painful to watch. I also think that you see me really struggling and that you are taking a lot on. My temper has not been great and that makes me so sad as mom. You come first and life is really not that hard- you deserve a wonderful mom. I need to let things go, not expect as much from you and be okay when mistakes happen. I get so caught up in knowing how important these first 5yrs are that I end up shooting myself in the foot when I stress about it. I want to foster love, respect, appreciation, empathy, compassion, trust, nurturing your inner core, developing a sense of self, the ability to stop and experience the world around us. If those are truly my intentions then I must take a breath and live in the moment and see the world through your beautiful and big blue eyes. Full of love, wonder, amazement and the desire to connect and be loved. 

great Sunday morning watching Daddy's favorite show. 

The cutest Panda at the Purim Carnival

what fun it was making our costumes

Homemade Pizza-such fun cooking in the kitchen with you!

I am going to San Jose tomorrow to look at schools for you, the area and spend time with dad. You will be staying with Bubby and the pugs are with Annie and Cole. You sure did cry when they went with Cole, which was sad to see, but I am so thrilled to see you liking them so much. I am nervous leaving all of my girls in different places and leaving you for 2 nights. Dad and I need time to figure out our next move and connect so that I can be a more patient and in the moment mom that you deserve. We are growing up my pipsqueek! Looking forward to what the future holds...