oh my little lady!
we went to talk about my feelings and I realized that I must lean into my anxiety. I am still struggling with my separation anxiety yet i realized that this is a chance for me to grow and strengthen a part of me and best part is...I get to do it with you. I hope that I will see all your strengths and amazing skills as you grow. We shopped, played and ran like crazy at the park. Give me time my little toast point to find more of my inner light and strength to run freely by your side in the sunshine. I hope that my sadness and anxiety doesn't hinder your ability to blossom and see the beauty in the world around you.
Today I learned that instead of feeling like I have not grown because I am using the same coping skills from when I was 12 I will honor how smart my 12 year old self was. I hope that you will always honor yourself and never forget to lean back in your swing and smile at the sun the way you know how to do at 18m. June you are a gift of sunshine to this beautiful world.
You are worth every late night because it is just more time that I get to play with you during the day- i get to follow both of my dreams: being a mom and helping others...its one day at a time filled with laughter and probably some tears and lots of hugs and kisses.
"dammit you said as you knocked over the bubble water"
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